......

It is crazy how we cope with the death of loved ones. On the day it happens it is tragic, it consumes your thoughts with painful memories that will never be again and then something weird happens, we move on. Some of us forget, while others hold on pushing everything else away. I don't think I did neither actually. Maybe at first I was in pain but that's normal right? Man, my mother raised one hell of a son. A guy with a heart as big as he could hold it and so stubborn that he could never let go or give up. I guess I'm the few who understands that they're truely never gone. They are physically but somehow I feel her more than ever around me. It could be a sunny summer day, the rain at my window, the smell of something sweet or my aunts laughter that reminds me of her. I like to think that all of these things are her little reminders to me that she is here with me and that she is always going to be here with me.

This year I don't want to make a new years resolution. But I do hope for slight adjustments, personal ones. I want to be closer to God. I know that seems a bit vague to some but when it comes to faith, there's pretty much no explaination needed. And also I want to understand the next person. I want to get to know a person for a person not for how they present themselves to the world, I want to understand them without them even saying a word.

Well, I enjoyed this past holiday and I am very thankful to have had the people I did have during the rough nights and bitter days. Family can drive you crazy but they are a blessing to have. That goes for some friends too.

I guess I'll leave the vacation experience for another blog post. Just thought I kill sometime since there's an hour to go til boarding. School starts on the 19th for me as well so I should get back to the habit of things back home.