Hey pandabutt!

-playlist loading

I'm looking for a reason why you even set my world into motion
cause if you're not really here .. then the stars don't even matter.

Now I'm filled to the top with fear but it's all just a bunch of matter
cause if you're not really here .. then I don't wanna be either.

I want to be next to you.

-sits next to you

This song is just awesome. I was jamming to it all day at work yesterday. LOL I'm pretty sure even texted some parts of the lyrics to you :] Speaking of work, it's been super duper busy here. I've been working non-stop from 8:30 until now.. whew! I miss you. I wonder if you're up yet. Hm.. you need to be!

-looks at phone

5 missed calls & 3 text messages from Love

Awwies.
I had no idea you called babe. I wanted to call you this morning when I was leaving for work but I didn't. I figured you need plenty of sleep after the eventful day yesterday. Too bad I'm at work and we can't talk so I guess I'll just talk to you through this blog. HA! I miss you lots. We didn't really get to talk much yesterday because you were busy running around moving stuffs into your new place. New place. Geez. This is huge. Hearing the excitement in your voice was just the cutest thing ever. I'm not sure if you realized it or not but .. this is YOUR own place. How freaking awesome is that? And that big ol bathtub that can fit about 3 pandas in there? Ugh, I'm so jealous. And let's not talk about the dent in the wall from bringing in the giant tv. I'm even jealous of your dent in the wall, man. LOL Nah, in all seriousness .. this is going to be a big chapter in your life and I'm glad I'll be able to be apart of this growing experience with you.

I have to get back to work now.
Lots of kisses! I love you and I can't wait to talk to you soon.

I'm feeling good about this.

It feels real good tonight.

-feels the breeze through my window.

Cooling it down, trying to do homework. 

Being bombarded with the world. 

Moving, school work, job... school money!

"That's life"

I swear If I go to talk to someone about my horrific time fitting into society with the "That's life" quote easing it's way into every conversation, I'm voting for McCain : / Not only does it make things go down hill, it bothers me. It sucks being bothered by something you feel subjected to, over and over again. So, shut up with that. I know it's life, but damn if I can't have some type of mind ease. 

I'm not perfect, nor is my faith, but man... I still go on to fix the pieces every other day. "A day at a time" right? 

Quick hollers

Jay be easy

Mai be easy

Shanell, be you.

Sammy, be stronger than I.

Noah, stay up?

Davon, stay eatin'!

Marc, be motivated, progress

Liz, love, live life.

Kris, have faith

Drey, be easy

Ace, hustle 

Julie, I miss you meng

Vicky, stay cool

Brandi, stay strong

Greg, show em'... easy

Mom, pray for me

back to homework.

"Forgive me Father, for I have sinned"

I guess this is something like a "blog" confession. Maybe this was typed for no reason at all but only used to my own demise. I don't care, I have something heavy on me and I just can't hold it any longer.

Sometimes I feel like I'm giving up the very thing that makes me who I am. Like my faith is a test to my own judgement, the people I chill with and the ones who cloud my judgement. Love, life, friendships, family... everything is changing and I am just diving in. It's insane though, once I thought I knew it all, thought I had every single thing figured out. I never did. Do we ever? Are we so prideful that we tell ourselves we know it all? That we have it all worked out? So selfish, believing we are responsible for our own achievements? I wake up, not thanking God for each breath of life I take and that kills me. I feel like a hypocrite. 

I am a hypocrite. Saying I will keep his presence in my good graces, only to forget. Keeping the Sabbath day holy, only to forget? When the time comes for my own judgement, what will I have to show for it? Years of a misguided adolescence, finding God when the tough touch of the world gets too rough? Man, my faith is not even defined. I can't say, "Oh, I'm Catholic" "Oh, I am a Christian". I can't even remember the last time I went to church!?

So right here, right now. I beg for forgiveness. I beg for God to use me, as his vessel to show others his love. To be a good man, a friend, a lover. To put aside my differences with the world and those who I claim are my enemies. 

Whoa, I sound crazy huh? Well, yeah... It's something crazy and new to me too. Time to put aside differences, and just live. 

Forgive me

Shit I did today:

• Slept
• Slept
• Made fun of the pirate
• Slept
• Had a sick nightmare
• Packed clothes
• Chilled
• Walked the dogs

wait. I didn't do that yet...

• Didn't walk the dogs
• Cooled
• Watched this awesome trailer

.. 3 more days 

"someday, this will be over.."

Say all the countries leaders and importante people are stranded on an island, we're most likely to get voted off the Island...

Alright so, wish me good luck! 

"I don't have no fancy car. No trendy parts.

Is it me or my wallet she is after.

But then she said, "I'll pay for me" 

I attacked her."

Sick, sick, sick. JP, but uh.. It's a perfect time to blog. Awesome, sick time to type up a blog. 

It's real cool outside, it was muggy hot all day until this breeze just set in. Flowing through the shades, cooling. 

I'm on the phone with the "pirate" looking out this window, chewing on ice from this cup. I feel like I should get a freezer or something from Taco Bell, but since my late employment with them years and years ago, fuck Taco Bell. And their powdered meat. I only fucks with the cinnamon twist anyways, shit is munching. Good.

But yeah, chewing on ice isn't real good for your teeth. It's an habit for me though, an Mom Urban Legends! You know, that shit they tell you is wrong only to satisfy their own fears of you hurting or injuring yourself. That caca-mamy-bullcrap. 

On a dimer side, a friend of mines wants to go the Styx road tomorrow. I don't know, I'm not too keen on these poster boys who skateboard with fashions and trends-ions on. Shit look made up to me, like they're trying to walk the run way instead of riding that shit. Posers. But yeah, I got this interview to go too so......... we'll see man!

Grego The Gr3at: you bein pussy not goin with us

Grego The Gr3at: just sit at home fgot

Grego The Gr3at: do a blog

Grego The Gr3at: a myspac

Grego The Gr3at: e

dunk killer: Sorry, meng. 

dunk killer: I don't respect dudes with 3's in their SN's

dunk killer: (insert laughing smiley)

Grego The Gr3at: jajajaja

Grego The Gr3at: fuck your gf

dunk killer: Precisely. 

Speaking of which, I fixed my cousins break chain on this pullie. They need to bring out those Warranty insured. Pullies are easily torn. 

I'm getting some Chin Chin Chinese food, should be good. I'm not fucking with that generic Panda Express and Mama Fu's crap. I want that out of the back allies into the kitchen rat-chicken wings LOL but yeah, I'm done. 

Oh and yeah, someone please sponsor my dude Grego man, SPONSOR! 

-Pops in Z boyz dvd

-Waits for Chin Chin

-Harasses the pirate

Ahoy Mates!

BASTIEN

"Roses are red, yellow, white.. 

Where have you been all my life?"

MSG From: Lizzy

It's lizzy lube

8:51AM 6-22-08

What an retard.

Via Autozone: So AutoZone is having a Car Week parade or something... this coming week. The hell is that? It is when they choose a car (maybe yours) to parade their gay signs and promote actually nothing. But you get paid for it surprisingly. I don't know, I just might go take my chances at LizzyLube. 

My cousin lost his first baby tooth last night, dude was proclaiming his manhood this morning lmfao. NO "neg." you still believe in the tooth fairy! "Neg." Yeah... so I fueled that tooth fairy crap by putting a Sacagawea coin under his pillow. Sue me?! Kids are kids. 

I woke up, grubbed on some cookie crisp and watched Sponge Bob I couldn't continue the sleep, I had to be productive. - How the hell does spongebob have an ocean in a ocean? A beach underwater?? A beach in a beach?! But yeah, I am even more productive here at AutoZone. I need to get my oil changed, shits been leaking for a good week now. I mean, with the gas prices on davonmode (gay as hell) I can't waste a single drop.

Hold on! I hear the ice cream truck!

False alarm, shit.

But check, I'm looking forward to this day, so none you bastards try an fuck it up? It's already known males are the new panties, so it's hard to get within 4 feet of you fucks. Fucking, social circle. I refuse meng, I refuse. 

-goes to by a cylinder filter 

:/ damn, oil.

"Dudes is too scared to take risk."

"Right, you pussies is making it harder for real niggas out here, you know?"

So my day was okay, until.. yeah, it was oddly shaped and lost foreground. She shapes my moods. Like, none of you could really understand how a single word from her affects me. Why explain? 

So right, I had this small thing for Speech and I called it "The White Man's struggle", oh yeah, the irony has hit a new low huh? Yeah well, it was just something for school. Nothing tragic or too over drawn. I guess, being Caucasian, there is no real struggle. I mean, besides being poor.. when have we ever raised hell about ourselves? I guess, what I am trying to get across.. was this alter ego, of just being mad and fed up with being the barer of all evil. Thought I spare my readers but then again, I want to type this shit out here. Cause I think I did good. Yeah, yeah. Here it goes.

I'm tired of the black man proposing me as a "threat". I'm tired of being blamed for oppression.

"The white man holding the "others" down." Since when did I become the barer of suppression? I'm tired of explaining myself, who I am. Who I be. I'm yellow, green, blue, purple, and red. A different color from the bunch. Tired of being asked why I say this, why I speak this way. Why does my accent carry heavy like a black mans. My posterior and the way I fit my clothes. I'm tired of dudes saying I'm "106th & parked", when did a television show become the symptoms of "acting black"? Matter of fact, how do you act black? Is this something, you take a class for?

"What up son" 

"word up son"

"Nah mean man?"

"These N&%$!Z is crazy!"

Wearing bagging jeans, Fubu and crazy african entrepreneur outfits? Or subscribing to the latest issue to Jet Magazine, the Source, or VIBE. Or eating chicken, saying I'm pro-ghetto.

Am I a cracker with pride? 

THAT'S RACIST.

No, what is racist is you being subjected to no change. Living in the same ages of the "colored man" and the sheep flocked slaves. How am I the reason for Master porches and hot cotton fields? My fore fathers wasn't apart the separation to conquer "them" plan. "Tell them they're different, they'll hold their tongues!!" Our society is a crumble of mixed babies and different races. But still we sit and say we're voting, based on the color of his/or her skin... Rather than facts and liability we hold him/ or her in? I'm a sane white man, lost in a morally challenged world. Ashamed to greet my partners, ashamed to speak the words of my youth. Racism has been around for years with different cloaks and hidden mirrors. Asian American, Black American, Jewish American, Mexican American, Irish American.. White American, Native American, all American. My son will be excited about the Civil Right Movement. My daughter will know the struggles Asian Americans when through during the Pearl Harbor Crisis. My son will know no color. My daughter won't be ashamed of her feelings. My children will grow up knowing we all we're created equal. 

That wasn't all, but I think I got the most of the most out of the paper

The parts that really counted more than the rest.

I'm cooling now. It feels good outside, right Marc? 

I'm telling you. I have some thinking to do right now though. 

-pushes up headphones. sits back and let's the record play

shut up Noah, with your 13K song playlists. 

"And then, something happened.

I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete.

I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom."

Cooling. I slept for 4 something hours when I got home. I was exhausted and aggravated all in one. See, I'm trying to place myself into society. Walk amongst the sheep. But shit is hard. It's like trying to talk to an "igg nant" person who thinks diet soda help you loose weight. Like you can do better off with Coke Zero than the original Coke :/ Same shit? Drink water...

"Retorted."

But. Yeah. Trying to find your place in an environment of different cultures, religions, races, opinions... etc, etc. is nerve racking. Not only do you have to be considerate of others, you have to make sure whatever you say or do doesn't offend the next person. See? Isn't that shit crazy? You have your own opinions and beliefs but you have to be considerate of others. 

On forward, my teacher is an 27 year old self centered brat. She has a Bachelors degree in Science but couldn't explain Newton's Law, correctly, to 27 students. And I hate her. Ah, I don't hate the broad meng, I just hate her opinions. I mean, first day.. okay, she made me take off my hat, cool.. it's cool. Second day, she made me leave my board outside, okay! Cool. The melt down started when she started criticizing me. Like, who the hell are you to tell me what to wear and sound like?? : /  -stops myself.

Anyways man.

LOS ANGELES - Skatepark 
Laguna Hills Skatepark 
25401 Paseo De Valencia 
Laguna Hills, CA

VIMBY - Laguna Hills

dunks.killer: laguna kids get down like that, forills?

G.O the GREAT: dude look like Corbin Blue(sp) in the beginning

 LMFAOOO

"It's like A fucking test."

Damn, Kobe wasn't going to loose that game last night. He was puppeteering L.A.

- I had an off topic Sunday. I'm cereal. I wasn't doing anything I wanted to do yesterday. Liz was gone and I was left alone with idle time and homework. BULLSHIET.

So uh, people's is deleting their blog pages or making the shit private. Uh? Okay?! Well, I'm going to delete that small link list anyways. You dudes is being homo right now!
I came up with the top 5 reasons to why these Emo bastids is deleting/or privatizing their blog pages. LOL


TOP 5 REASONS I DELETED MY BLOG:
5. "I've found life now so I don't need to blog in the cyber world..."
4. "I'm so tired of people judging by my blogs....."
3. "No one reads my blog anyways.. "
2. "...................................................................................."
AND The number 1 reason these fools deleted/ or make private their blogs?!
1. "I just need to find myself and I figured... I can only do by deleting my blog. -deletes, AHH! Now I can sleep a little easier.. "


I'm just fucking around. : /


But serious, peoples is strange these days. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm a strange asshole who likes to mock other lives and reality situations.


Ha, I don't care "negga"

school time

sleep well viet-wigga! I'll call you.

"you is acting real gay right now"

LOL, quote from Riley on Boondocks

Man, I'm bored as !#$%^&*!

Watching some Boondocks and old episodes of Venture Bros. (My shit) Eating a bowl of cheerios, bothering dude for music since Lime wire is being gay! 

Hm, what to "blog" about now...

Man, posting blogs is gay. Heh, seems gay. 

Like, can you picture a thug with a blogger page? Nah foreal, like.. dude chillin' with his boys talking about dumb shit and killing dudes and then he say some to the left shit like, "hold on man, let me go blog about this shit man"

LMFAO for real! Saying, "Hold on man, I'm heated right now, let me go blog about this real quick..."

WTF?

I mean, that would be weird to see right? A thug blogging. 

But yeah, I'm sleepy kind of but not really. It's only 1AM so.. I'm using this idle time for absolutely nothing. Prolly going to watch some more Venture Bros and sippy sippy on this minute maid. Liz fell asleep on me like she had some type of asianitis. LOL, breathing all hard an shit. But I miss her : ( and her chomping on something in the late night ass. I'm not talking about shit on here so, I'll leave it as is and return to watching TV.

outtie 5 trillions

Edit**

I don't even like Nelly.

But this shit feels like the "Steppin in my air force ones 2008" edition : |

"It's not anti-social, it's life."

How it goes? I've been absent a few blogger days, trying to fight these allergies. Keeping healthy and hydrated. Trying to catch up in these classes too, working, establishing my relationship etc. etc. Things that were needed to be done in order to have some type of balance in my life. BIG SMILE 

I suppose I could go into detail but I would bore approximately 87% of bloggers who schemes through my blogs. So to sum it all up, I'm growing now and I would like thank those who've helped me grow as a man, a son, a uncle, a brother, a 'boyfriend" and a mutual friend. Without you, I couldn't grow. Thanks? 

On forward. We type, talk, communicate how we have that significant half in our lives and how they makes us feel, blah blahh. We say things one day ending up with a total mind warp the next. Love comes and love goes these days right? You feel me? No? I'll elaborate. You have two marbles together right? Place these two in a circle and now you have them in a complete 360 right? 360 making it a circle. Making it whole. So then, you add other marbles to the circle and the other marbles determines what happens to the first two marbles. Heh, altering what the first two marbles we're even doing there to begin with. LOL, I confused you huh? (Wtf Carm? Marbles? Really?) My bad. Uh...

Yeah, so, the circle is life, love, success, fidelity and trust. The two marbles are male and female.. or if you're homosexual, something totally different? Right? And the other marbles are friends, family, other people outside of the two, etc. etc. I don't know (I say Idk a lot) just, man, if you're trying to establish something with someone just do it yourself. Don't ask "Keke and them" how they feel about it. Don't involve family members and shiet. I mean, advice is cool and everything but let's be real, it's your life and at the end of the day, your opinion. 

So! With all of that out the way, Josh is a awesome person, I saw a few of his competitions down at Vince Beach, it's cool. Don't know who Josh is? Josh is a perfessional surfer. Still don't know? Video:

VIMBY - Josh Sleigh and the Grinch

i'm outtie 5 million.

i miss you so much woman.

"We're just the elite. A TV station, 

controlling your minds through the tube." 

I was in a frenzy state searching for an updated article ons planetary alignments, solar eclipse, or anything new from NASA and she finds this shit easily. Women. If anything, they know how to "dig up" information.

Aside from that, school is stressing me. I'm having these back of the head headaches. I've never had this shit before. Plus this heat wave in So. Cal is killer. I'm a winter baby, I can't handle this dead heat. 

So I got Seeing Sounds earlier this morning, dude was dressed in a weird UPS outfit, but I got it! 15 tracks? The leaked version only had 12, ha.. must purchase. But Liz sent me the leaked Cold Play album.. I like it, it could top Seeing Sounds, maybe! 

But yeah, on forward: A lot of my friends are hitting me up for advice on this drawing competition for school. You're suppose to take an Ad, any Ad, and come up with a completely different concept of it. So, say I use something like a Tooth Brush: Crest ad, I would then have to make it over completely. Having absolutely nothing to do with Crest. Odd? Odd. I was going to do it but I rather watch the Laker game. So, friends. I have no advice to give. Just do something you like and turn it into something you like even more. 

So, I leave it here.. oh, and I can't believe they featured Pacifica on VIMBY videos - coolingbeans that is. Almost the best OLD FASHIONED skatepark in all of California. I travelled to just spend a day there. Worth the travel, so worth. 

SAN FRANCISCO - Skatepark 
Pacifica Skatepark 
540 Crespi Dr. 
Pacifica, CA 94044

NOTE * I am the first, to have, LAZER GUN.MP3 featured on blog. 

"do you have some sicilian inside you... " -smirks

So uh, new blog? 

You likes it meng, you likes. 

So...... uh, yeah, night?!

LEAVES WITH A FUNNY CONVO:

davon.: C turns the light on to play hide and seek

dunk killer: LMFAO

dunk killer: Yeah

dunk killer: YEAH

dunk killer: we turn on them lights

dunk killer: to find your ass nigga

marcucio.: LOL

marcucio.: *D turns the lights out* .. "NAHHHH YOU CHEATING NIGGA!"

dunk killer: LMFAO!!

* edit, comes back

I guess, you can say I am an asshole at times. And I guess, you can say we're meant to have our horizontal to vertical ups and downs. But nothing and no one compares to you. I fiend you entirely in a million miles distance (if possible). And nothing here could come between "your hearts fate" You know this? I was never the guy to type sappy shit in the blog about his awesome girlfriend, but tonight, I'm laying all my pride on the table for you. Under the circumstances of being laughed at, called gay, or in the crowds of "awww's" - it's all for you. My words are small, and meaningless here. But you should know how I feel, not spoken... there's not a day I don't remind you of how I feel dude -scratch that, babes ** 

"catch your balls people"

Kill all that whack shit, you people have no idea what's going on behind the smoke and mirrors of our society. Aside from your cars and trendy pants, shirts, accessories.. there is of an greater issue at hand. YOUR GOVERNMENT. Do you trust them? Should you trust in them? Do I have to vote for Obama because he speaks of "Change". Why was Mrs. Clinton so easily to give up a long run to become the first WOMAN President? How many politicians fabricated lies and deceitful ways to corrupt our country. Fuck, the US is in for a Rude Awakening (not plugging Ace's album/mix-tape but go get that anyways!) From higher gas prices to borrowing money from the number one country who hates our guts, we're slowly but surely setting ourselves up for failure. 

Well, before we go down, is there any last request you'd like to make? You can call this a personal declaration for yourself. Here's a few things I've listed before I end up in U.S debt. World War III:

1. Eat a Staten Island Pizza, with extra garlic and cheese
2. Read the Count of Monte Cristo, on a beautiful Fall day.. again.
3. Spend $1,000.oo on absolutely nothing. 
4. Lay in the grass, and feel all itchy when I go inside to take a bath.
5. Eat a whole bag of peanut M&M's, fuck if I am allergic to it. 
6. Punch a red neck in the face.
7. Make love under a Sickamore Tree - google that, if you don't know what a Sickamore Tree is.
8. Get into a good debate over Pepsi One and Coke Zero
9. Curse my manager out (out loud this time)
10. Walk in the rain...
11. Catch lightening bugs in a jar with my nephews
12. Be a perfect father. Yes, I mean.. perfect, absolutely perfect. No flaws, no abandonment, no regrets, just fatherhood in it's full responsibility.
13. Write a letter to the company that convinced Americans Vitamin Water is actually "healthy"

...

night.

"FUCK!"

"WHAT THE FUCK?!"

"AHH! #%#^UGS(%EJ!HGR!J(64"

"Babe, my stomach hurts from the disappointment of this game.."

Yup, that's all Carmine and his potty mouth right there.

So we're basically sitting here watching the Lakers get their asses kicked.

:/


I was trying to have some hope and faith in the team, ya know?
I mean, we were 20 points down during the Spurs game ..
But this time.. it doesn't look like we'll get a chance to win at all.


-throws phone on the floor

#%#^!?#%)#!$!



Whoops, can't do that because Carmine is on the phone.
My little pandabutt :) Awww!

Speaking of pandas, my little sister went to see Kung Fu Panda today and brought back this little guy for me. SO CUTE EH?




Oh, before I get the hell out of your blog babe..
Here's a little snippaged of the convo I had with Jeanri earlier...



That hasta make you smile bunches!!!

:)

Cheer up my little pandabutt and I love youuuuuu.

"We don't have sex, we make cookies."

Good day, night, afternoon people.
(I'm not staying in order huh?)
It was a stupid nice day, was it not? It was one of those relaxed ones meng, where you could chill with a slurpie or some fresh now-and-laters. -cheeses My day was cooling till I ended up having a small fight with Viet-wigga. To top it off, some ho asked a friend of mine if I was prejudice. YEAH?! ME PREJUDICE?! : /

Effed. But I'm chill, it's good finally. Took a whole damn day of negativity to get something worth a nights rest. I had an brief conversation with a pal of mine on politics and "secret societies" - And dude bustes out saying, "THE 2008 ELECTIONS ARE GOING TO BE CANCELLED" LMFAO, dude sound more paranoid than me.

So I want to brief things up, so I can lay my ass down. So... BULLETINS?! YEAH?

• Mya (laughs) and Shanell are gay. Not good rainbow gay, more like, bad lesbian sex gay.
• Laker game tomm.
• Americas Best Dance Crew Live auditions is on
• Drinking a sobe, so good, so good
• Notice the ( *** ) on my playlist, if you see the ( *** ) it indicates my favorite tracks out of the whole damn thing, non-important you say, but importante to me, I say : ]
• I BOOTLEGGED N*E*R*D ALBUM OKAY?! But I support the artist, none the less and I have pre-ordered. Thanks Amazon.com
• Just laugh and walk away in the middle of their foolishness, I swear, you'll piss that person or persons off.
• -munchies on lemonheads
• I'm going to brush my teeth later
• I think I am OCD about my teeth
• I bought Deftones collection of marked Concert pens for 12.99, you say.. "retarded carmine".. I say, "collection worth gold some day, assholes"
• Liz touches herself when she sees me
• I always wanted to be the green Ranger, he had a cool pony tail and banged Kimberly
• LMFAOOO @ THIS TWIX COMMERCIAL
• Shin Chin is awesome
• ........... brain fart.......
• I was banned from wearing my "Make Her Pussy Farts" tee-shirt on campus. What ever happened to freedom of expression?!?!

 I still have faith in L.A.

my playlist> yours dude

"I'm tired of talking to myself."

I'm not sure what to think of this situation anymore. Hell, it's not any of my business. So I guess! Which ever road you guys decide to take, maybe you'll end up happier? Yeah, I think it'll be good once you've gotten all this madness out of the way. 

So! I'm in a bummed mood and there is no one to ease the bummed-ness. I don't know, maybe I'm looking for someone to tell me to shut the fuck up and proceed with my day. I lost this book, how in the hell did I do this? No clue.. but I need it right now for the HW, BS. Bumming me out. Hard.

But yeah, I was tempted to see someone(s) in NY Monday but I figured it'll just be a waste of time. I just wanted to leave so quickly... I don't know why I wanted to leave so quickly. Maybe I was scared of getting caught out of state? Maybe. As a matter of fact, I hate the Bronx.. and the people in it. I didn't use to hate it so much. It use to consume my life. The people, my family, friends, etc, etc. But now I just hate it. The smell, the streets, each bodega... maybe that's why I wanted to leave so quickly.

This whole dollar being insignificant thing is worrying me. The whole thing about the new "Amero" dollar sounds like a total disaster. Damn youtube and their youtube videos. 

I'm going to talk to Liz, till she kicks me off and goes to work

And then attempt to draw. I don't feel inspiration for it anymore but It is HW

Oh and, just cause I bootlegged Seeing Sounds,

 doesn't mean I don't support my artist! Lizzy!  

Thank Amazon.com for that =)

"You know you can't stay mad at me, right? 

Okay, fine. If you insist." 

But yeah, I decided to blog only importante shit. 

Ah, who am I kidding? 

I'lls blogs whatevers thes hells Is feels likes bloggings [/ghetto (s) slang]

Top 10 things needed to know

1. Updated playlist
2. Loan in my grasp
3. NY for a day was fun but also sad, at the same time
4. E=MC2 ??
5. I finally figured out the method to my madness
6. I'm anti-people, freal, freal. 
7. Seeing Sounds June 10th !
8. The Happening June 13th ! (Idk, I like the directors previous movies, so this might be good.)
9. Lizzy makes her shoes from baby cow skins
10. New love for enchiladas

peace pce.

Sorry babe, I can't bare to look at that kitty picture any longer. I'm currently at work .. I really should be "working" but instead here I am .. writing in your blog and stuffs. I'm sure you don't mind, right? I miss you lots! I kept thinking about our little talk last night. I understood everything you were saying because I feel the same exact way. As far as those outside forces that may try to tug and pull to get us part, at the end of the day - we are pulled right back to each other. I love that but most importantly, I love you! Lately, there's been all sorts of little bumps on the road and I know how frustrating it can be. But you know what? You're still going strong and that's amazing. Sometimes, its going to be those broken roads you have to take in order to get to the places most worth staying forever in. Some days are going to be hills and others, mountains. But once you've reach the top, you've overcome the hardest part and the rest of it shall be a walk in the park. Each new day will present a whole set of new paths, each step will be guide you toward a new direction. But regardless of it the path is through a field of flowers or that darkest forest, as long as we find our way through together .. that's all that matters. I mean, at the end of the day.. the only thing I could be is the person that I am, and somehow, some way, just hold out hope that it would be enough to help you get through every new day with nothing less than a smile on your face. Well, I'm totally rambling again so I'll stop here. I get all rambly when I'm trying to say so much all at once, (you know what I mean? lol)

So yeah, I barely got to talk to you this morning. I didn't really have much of a voice because of my cold and your stupid phone kept hanging up :/ You better call me when you get off the plane so I know that you're okay. I love you Carmine and I can't wait to hear from you soon.