Another Again

It is approximately 3:31AM right now and of course, you've guessed it, I can't drift off to sleep for nothing. I took a power nap this evening, around 6 or something like that, that is why I am still up. Once again left to face the late night/early morning alone with myself.

Yesterday wasn't so bad. I got up around 6:45AM or so? Took a shower, blah blah blah, got some breakfast at Cafe La Kitchen (my kitchen) and had a big ass bowl of smackems and orange juice. Grabbed a gallon of water and headed to school. I had 2 classes today so it was pretty short. DSP103 (Design for Print II) from 8AM-10AM, a break and ENV201(Environmental Sci) from 12PM-2PM. These are Tuesday and Thurs classes only and I pretty much like the whole set up there too except this boring ENV201 class. Yes, it's pretty boring. I snooze often, not too often though! Don't want you guys thinking I'm a slacker or something. But seriously, why am I taking this class??? The teacher in this class has this crazy lisp-speech impediment thing going on too. Maybe it's my dirty mind? But when he says Best, it sounds like Breast, like for example! "Do your Breast"........... I'm like whose breast?!? I admit, it was kind of funny a week ago but now it's all sorts of confusing. Man I wish my seat was closer to the front, ohh yeah! We have high schooled assigned seats, so this A hole can remember our names. Heh.

So what else is going on with me? Honestly, nothing major as always. I like to keep my life as simple as possible now a days. Complexity just isn't my thing anymore. I feel like a ton has been lifted off my soul though. No one had caused it but myself so I guess it took myself to get it off. I mean, I'm human and I fuck up most of the time but I learn from my mistakes and in time move on. I don't hate Elizabeth, I never will (for those who've expected me to/or myself for that matter) and I guess that's because I understand her method a little bit now. I now know her intentions was the truest at times. Although she has a pretty weird way of making them clear enough for me to understand, you'd have to be involved with her for a long time to understand how her mind works. I'm not sure if I even get her completely still but for the most part, I understand. You're not Sammy, you are you and that's all that mattered really. I was a bum for saying that that the way I did, a very foul move on my part and I'm sorry BUT I wasn't looking for a woman to baby me and make me feel good like you've mentioned. I wanted someone who would inspired me to be me and be fine with me, no matter what. I thought you were that person, and I hate to say this shit or even hear you say it, but it goes back to that movie 500 DOS, you were my Summer, now she is my Autumn? =.... I guess you were right, you were just another chapter in my book. You sort of led me back to the one person I've regretted losing from the beginning though and I am happy now, she makes me very happy. I hope that makes you happy for me?

I don't know where our future falls but where ever it is I hope it ends with her. And THAT is me not caring anymore, my life, my decisions and that is what I want. She is what I want.

I hope this made some kind of sense.

It's 4AM now and I have work in 5 hours. Shit.