"Dudes is too scared to take risk."

"Right, you pussies is making it harder for real niggas out here, you know?"

So my day was okay, until.. yeah, it was oddly shaped and lost foreground. She shapes my moods. Like, none of you could really understand how a single word from her affects me. Why explain? 

So right, I had this small thing for Speech and I called it "The White Man's struggle", oh yeah, the irony has hit a new low huh? Yeah well, it was just something for school. Nothing tragic or too over drawn. I guess, being Caucasian, there is no real struggle. I mean, besides being poor.. when have we ever raised hell about ourselves? I guess, what I am trying to get across.. was this alter ego, of just being mad and fed up with being the barer of all evil. Thought I spare my readers but then again, I want to type this shit out here. Cause I think I did good. Yeah, yeah. Here it goes.

I'm tired of the black man proposing me as a "threat". I'm tired of being blamed for oppression.

"The white man holding the "others" down." Since when did I become the barer of suppression? I'm tired of explaining myself, who I am. Who I be. I'm yellow, green, blue, purple, and red. A different color from the bunch. Tired of being asked why I say this, why I speak this way. Why does my accent carry heavy like a black mans. My posterior and the way I fit my clothes. I'm tired of dudes saying I'm "106th & parked", when did a television show become the symptoms of "acting black"? Matter of fact, how do you act black? Is this something, you take a class for?

"What up son" 

"word up son"

"Nah mean man?"

"These N&%$!Z is crazy!"

Wearing bagging jeans, Fubu and crazy african entrepreneur outfits? Or subscribing to the latest issue to Jet Magazine, the Source, or VIBE. Or eating chicken, saying I'm pro-ghetto.

Am I a cracker with pride? 

THAT'S RACIST.

No, what is racist is you being subjected to no change. Living in the same ages of the "colored man" and the sheep flocked slaves. How am I the reason for Master porches and hot cotton fields? My fore fathers wasn't apart the separation to conquer "them" plan. "Tell them they're different, they'll hold their tongues!!" Our society is a crumble of mixed babies and different races. But still we sit and say we're voting, based on the color of his/or her skin... Rather than facts and liability we hold him/ or her in? I'm a sane white man, lost in a morally challenged world. Ashamed to greet my partners, ashamed to speak the words of my youth. Racism has been around for years with different cloaks and hidden mirrors. Asian American, Black American, Jewish American, Mexican American, Irish American.. White American, Native American, all American. My son will be excited about the Civil Right Movement. My daughter will know the struggles Asian Americans when through during the Pearl Harbor Crisis. My son will know no color. My daughter won't be ashamed of her feelings. My children will grow up knowing we all we're created equal. 

That wasn't all, but I think I got the most of the most out of the paper

The parts that really counted more than the rest.

I'm cooling now. It feels good outside, right Marc? 

I'm telling you. I have some thinking to do right now though. 

-pushes up headphones. sits back and let's the record play

shut up Noah, with your 13K song playlists.